Guys, I am soooo ready for 2019!
But before the year starts off, I want to share a few thoughts on the past year – and on the one to come.
2018 has been truly amazing. I had a pretty bad 2017 and was all into changing a lot of personal things, especially emotionally, in 2018. I did not only manage to find solutions for almost all of my emotional issues and personal topics, but I actually found an inner peace and joy that I didn’t even dare to ask for. In 2018 I learned more about people, love, relationships, life in general, and my life in particular than ever before. I am SO grateful for this year and everything it has brought to me!
I never felt as much love as I did in 2018, not from others, not from myself. I never felt as much trust as I did in 2018, trust in me, my life, and everything around. I never learned as much as I did in 2018, and I never got challenged in such wonderful and beautiful ways as I 2018.
And I am so ready for 2019! 2018 was the beginning of something new that will continue to slowly fall into place in 2019. Many thoughts have been thought this year – all leading towards things that will be taking place in 2019. There will be some lifechanging things going on in 2019. And I am not exaggerating. I truly will have some things coming up 2019 that will change my life completely.
I will have to let go some of the things that have been the most important to be in the past three years and I feel sad about it. I will let go things I have been working on and spend a lot of time on. I will have to let things go that I put all my love and my heart in for a very long time. And yes, this is difficult. Change always is. At the same time, I am SO excited for everything that will come instead! And the excitement is much stronger than the sadness and the fear – so there is no doubt that the path I’ve chosen for me is the right one.
Here is what I personal believe: when you get overexcited over a certain plan or project; excited to an extent that you are willing to leave behind a lot of what you love and what you use to spend most of your time with, then this means that you are ready for something new. Ready to leave behind.
I am not yet ready to share all of my plans for 2019 but I will share a few. There will be a big change taking place in Spring 2019, then another great change in June 2019, and finally a major change towards Fall 2019. There will be most certainly a lot of other things happening that may change my life as well, but those three big milestones are there for sure. Or at least that what it’s look like 🙂
I cannot yet tell you about the first one, and neither about the one in Fall 2019 (not yet…) – but I can tell you what will happen in June 2019: I will have another baby!
Those of you following my blog know about my two miscarriages; I had one in Summer 2017 (which knocked me out) and another one it February 2018 (which healed me in many different ways, and is among the most beautiful things I experienced in 2018). Both times that I got pregnant, I knew it wasn’t the right time yet. We simply weren’t ready. There where so many other projects going on! Looking back at both miscarriages, I am grateful for them. This may sound weird and strange but my life wouldn’t be where it is now when things would have happened differently – and I truly want my life to be where it is right now. Having another child earlier would have meant a lot less time for our little family, much more work for my husband, much less time for me and my blog, and myself! I wasn’t ready yet, life wasn’t ready yet. There were still so many things that needed to be done and tried out before having another child…
I still wanted to have so much more time for me, all by myself. This year I travelled all by myself for a weekend every single month! This is something I haven’t done since my first child came to life. It felt good to do so this year – but you know what? I was so tired of it towards the end of the year, I was done with travelling alone, I was done with leaving my husband and girl behind once a month. I was ready for more together-time again!
Yes, now we are ready. All plans are set to have the BEST time with the newborn, all plans are set for us as a family. We know where we want to be in six months from now and where we want to be in twelve months from now, and even in twelve years from now. We are ready for a HUGE new step. Even though we are afraid, yes we are. But we are so ready!
2018 was all about letting go. I let go another baby from my belly. I let go of many ideas what the future could look like. I let go of some of the most precious things in my life.
2019 will be all about letting in! Letting in a new human into this world. Letting in new people, new stories, new places. And letting in a new life with new tasks and challenges.
I hope that you are as excited as I am about the new year and I wish you all that you will experience nothing but love and joy in the coming 12 months!
We will be spending New Year’s in Portugal, walking at the beach in the sunshine on the first day of the new year. This is what we did when I was pregnant with my first baby, and it feels just right to do it again now, being ready for child number two. I will be sharing more pictures from Portugal soon – and I will be sharing my blog-plan for 2019 with your guys as well. Since I am pregnant, it may be just sliiiightly pregnancy related 😉
HAPPY NEW YEAR!